2009-05-11

Sorry For Not Posting Anything For A While...

My personal life is kind of in a shambles right now.

It's got nothing to do with hubby not having a job for 2 years now.

Or that he's waiting for Social Security Disability to give him the thumb's up for getting disability pay.

No.

It's about me.

I am on the precipice, looking into the abyss (almost, sorta, kinda rhymes) known as getting fired.

Yup.

Me.

Me, who has 20-some years experience doing this sort of stuff. Me, who suffered a brain aneurysm last year, but survived. (No, this is not a ghost or a clone typing this, heh.) Me, who's had trouble getting all this at my new job to click in my head.

And maybe that's part of the problem. Maybe certain brain functions are screwed up or something, because a lot of what I'm being taught and trained just isn't staying in my brain; I've had some faux paus lately that I knew were wrong, but it's as if I couldn't help myself.

Sheesh.

Anyhoo, I actually brought home a manual I've been told to work on in the hopes that I can get all of it banged out and to my boss on Monday. She's wanted to see it from time to time to edit, and I've tried to give that to her, but it's not good enough. I've always tried to finish things first before handing them over, but that's not what she wants, apparently.

Again, this might be more of my fried brain, but who the hell knows?

All I know is that I've been playing the lottery like you wouldn't believe. Not that I'm spending hundreds of dollars a week on that; that's nuts. I have spent $10 or $20 a week, and have managed to get 2 numbers on 2 or 3 different tickets, but that's been it so far. I got some books that take a more mathematical approach to this (lowering the odds to win by looking at different trends or patterns), but I still haven't done better than 2 numbers on a ticket.

Once I get to 3 numbers, I know I'll have gotten this thing down. Until then, I keep looking for certain trends and have actually caught a couple, but nothing won as yet.

It's all a matter of time, all around, ya know?

Love and kisses,

~Nancy Beck

4 comments:

Theadra Leilani said...

Hang in there. You've made an amazing journey over the last year. Don't lose sight of that. And, I'll admit it, I've started playing the lottery also, in a pool at work. It couldn't hurt, right? =) Just remember, you're not alone.

Liz said...

How goes it now, Nancy? Hope things are looking up for you. It seems the 2009 is going to go down in the annals (nearly wrote anals, which is pretty much how I feel about this year) of time as one that "could do better", as my English teacher used to put on my report after every exam. Hmmm. Maybe she was right :-)

Theadra Leilani said...

We miss you and pray that everything is going well. Hang in there and, remember, we care about you. Take care!!

Theadra Leilani said...

Just wanted to say, been thinking about you, and I hope everything is working out. Hang in there. You're in our prays.